Swamiji

Today, Jan 12th is Swami Vivekananda's birth day.
The greatest of great men i admired ever.
He has influenced me to a great extent.
One quote which i found very inspiring and motivating is,
"Take up one idea.Make that one idea your own.
Think of it; dream of it; live on it.
Let your mind, muscles, nerves every part of your body
be full of that one idea. Just leave every other idea alone.
This is the way to success!"
-Swami Vivekananda.


I always tried to follow it.
In every little thing i do,if i am
successful, i am right on the path;
only one idea in mind.
But its not always the case.
Thoughts pour into mind, from all possible
directions, whether i want them or not.
Unknown fear, feeling discouraged and i would think
to give up almost.I'll suffer with them for sometime.

But again swami's words on the wall
give me strength:


" Be Fearless Fear is death, fear is sin, fear is hell, fear is unrighteousness, fear is wrong life. All the negative thoughts and ideas that are in the world have proceeded from this evil spirit of fear."
-Swami Vivekananda.


I will become alert,
throw everything else from mind,
and focus on that one idea again.

These two cycles come as day and night come
periodically. It thus proves the phenomena
that nothing stays long;
Bad days go, even good days go.
We just have to be aware of our duty today.

I should mention here that, its one year today that i
joined Indian Institute of Astrophysics as a PhD student.
My dream of several years came true on this day of 2007.

Truth

Truth can be bitter...
Truth can be painful...
Truth can be funny...
But truth is always a truth...

You can make one believe a lie as truth...
You can never make one believe a truth as lie...
Because,
Truth is always a truth and
Lie is always a lie!!

May be its true...

May be its true that some thoughts will never come true...
May be its true that sometimes i can't prove...
May be its true that somethings which i believe do not exist at all...
And they just cross the mind without any reason...
May be its true that somethings-which i think today
that would make me happy tomorrow will dissolve tonight in darkness and
next morning (which surely comes) comes with a different light...
Light-bright enough to overwhelm my thoughts...
And makes me realize that,
Light that i had expected is not the end of darkness...
Its just a light which even ends with darkness...

I may shed a few drops today..
I don't want them to flow tomorrow...
This little strength is that i have always...
I certainly have always...

Life is an Illusion..

Thoughts..
We grow... we think..
Think without sleep...
To know the answer to the
Questions that will never have an answer..

Joy...
We can't say what is joy..
For , as someone said,
“Anything that is achieved loses its charm”

Pain...
We cry for having pain,
but thats not a pain..
We can't understand the real pain..
For we will be tear less for the real pain..

Life is a confusion..
An illusion for short periods..
It gives glimpses of everything..
Nothing stays long..
Days will pass..

Still We think...We laugh..
We cry..
And we live..

A Young Tortoise

It was my first spring,
I just put my head
out of the shell;
To seek the truth
against the unlimited
imaginations i had about it,
from the stories i heard
from my mom and friends!

I felt ecstatically great,
by the warm, soothing light
after the last cold and dark night.
I enjoyed the day
and the days that came next,
playing in the sand and sea water,
made new friends!

Spring was just a hope to live,
A warm breeze but short lived,
Then it just went,
leaving only bare thoughts,
Ofcourse reminded me to
put my head back inside the shell!!!

Real Vs Imaginary.

This is just an attempt to reflect my view of real and imaginary world. Will add more whenever i find time. Einstein said,
As far as the laws of mathematics refer to reality, they are not certain;
and as far as they are certain, they do not refer to reality.
I love mathematics and transitivity holds. That means most of the times i dwell in this imaginary world which does not refer to reality. Most of us are in this state of mind at least for sometime.
Of course, i imagine a lot. If anything is not like what i have imagined,
i just can't accept it. Approximations, are mandatory in order to apply a mathematical theory to a
physical situation to understand the situation practically. Because physically nothing can be understood by a pure mathematical theory. I imagine a story behind everything i come across.
It may be the number sequence, swarasthana of swaras, a raaga, a star, an unseen place or people.
This has made me enjoy abstract things in mathematics in my own way and has made me love mathematics, pure mathematics the most. Also it lead me to love raagas such as Maalkouns or Hindola, by feeling them. But it has also made me suffer a lot. Indeed you will learn to live when such processings take place inside your mind. But reality, most of the times has proved the contradictions particularly with people. That means, when imagination is applied to a real situation as it is. It certainly needs some approximations. This is my claim. It may be very early to conclude so. Hope my experience with time, physics and mathematics will give more acceptable proofs and hope i learn more. Do you call it madness? This state of mind, is called madness or absent mindedness if it belongs to a normal person. If it is of great people, it is called "Antharmukhi", or turned to ones own self state. Why?? This state of mind will be there
for all. If you make good use of it, it may lead to your success, increase your analyzing power etc. If you allow yourself to suffer, you will be no-where but mad. It can be most challenging to find both the states in phase and realize the self, which may be the ultimate truth.
That will lead to take a complete control over your mind??

A Deer And a Friend not close

On the tip of a hill,
A Little deer stands still
Lost from the herd,
A voice it heard,
Go ahead.
At the cost of taking
the road not taken
repeated the voice,
Go ahead.
No horns to fight,
Only a dream tied tight,
Wind letting down,
Green looking brown,
Repeated the voice,
Go ahead.
Far above in sky,
A lamp bright do lie,
Lighting the entire land,
Held by an unseen hand.
Hand of a friend not close,
A friend you scare to lose,
A friend not a friend
Not close still a friend.
Lamp the hope of light,
Lasts only till night,
Trembled the deer,
Its voice did quaver,
Starring the setting sun,
Made up its mind to run,
Again it heard the voice,
Go ahead,
Don't stop but run,
Don't stop till u win.

Created on : 13th Dec, 2004.